What is it about birthdays that makes us reevaluate everything? We get older everyday but the tangibility of an actual birthday is more concrete than the monotony of every day. Yesterday was my 26th birthday. Part of getting older, I think, is coming to terms with ourselves and those ugly flaws we can barely see around. Even Hercules had a temper, right? Getting over that snaggle tooth and the spare tire that you just can’t change no matter how many crunches you do and Jillian Michaels workout videos you watch and think about trying.
I am a painfully extroverted person. I will talk to anyone about anything for an extended period of time. I am also really forgiving and often times not a good judge of character. I fall in love hard and fast and I set myself up to get hurt too much. Having my chest cracked open like this isn’t always good for me but it isn’t something I can just sew up myself. And lately, I’ve been wondering if I really want to. My most marked characteristic is my openness.I care very deeply about a lot of people and a lot of things and I don't want to stop doing that just because it doesn't always end well but I think I am learning to step back. Maybe this year will be about mastering the ability to give myself at least a single degree of separation for my own emotional preservation.